Hey, it’s been a while…
Coming into 2019 I promised myself that I wouldn’t let anything get in the way of pursuing my goals (yes, cliche, I know) so I’m bringing my blog back, in hopes that it will help feed my soul and continue to spark my inner creativity!
Its probably only fair to talk about what I’ve been up to and why I stopped blogging in the first place… It’s pretty simple – life got crazy! But in all seriousness, my last go around I had completely different intentions. I was working a 9-5 out of college in an industry that I wasn’t passionate about, and although I did well, I didn’t feel confident in what I was doing, and I certainly wasn’t putting any of my natural skill to good use… I now lovingly refer to that time in my life as my “character building” days, and I learned a very valuable lesson over those four years – just because you are good at something, doesn’t mean you are meant to do it.
So I started a blog. Why? I found my first set of bloggers that I couldn’t help but obsess over. I was a shopaholic. I like to talk, a lot. And, most importantly, I needed to prove my ability to think creatively to land a job in the creative world.
The good news is that the blog did indeed help land me a job in a new career field. A job that I had been searching for over a year prior, but just needed that proof of concept to get my foot in the door. The bad news? Once I landed that job I wanted to kick ass. I threw myself into work and made sure I proved to my boss that the risk she said she was taking to hire me was worth it.
The other part of the fashion/lifestyle blogging that got me down? I felt VERY vulnerable. I think that was part my age at the time and not feeling like I found a niche that I truly felt confident in. I was doing it for most of the right reasons – I needed a job, I love photography, and I love clothes. But the part that no one talks about? What happens when you don’t gain thousands of followers over night? In today’s world is that a failure to prove a concept?
I think other people felt weird about it. I was doing the damn thing, but didn’t have a following like a lot of other great bloggers. When you start out you feel like your talking to yourself – because you kind of are… But your also talking to a lot of people that won’t admit they read your content or like your posts (which the handy dandy use of analytics gave me insight to). That made me feel weird, and I kinda took it personally. It made me feel vulnerable and I questioned who really wanted to see me succeed.
This time around, I’m doing it for myself. I just genuinely feel like I provide a unique perspective on, and I have fun with it. To make a disclaimer: by no means am I a “trained” interior designer, I went to school for marketing and law and I work in brand advertising, but I love decorating and design. I can step into a room and within seconds envision a space I never want to leave.
So, if something I said resonated with you, stay a while. I’d love to have you share this with me, too.